Someday my BEST will be The BEST......

Did I always give my Best???
Yes, I am the topper of my school in Class 12. 
Yes, I am the topper of my Department (Computer Science and Engineering) in my college. 
Yes, I got a very good rating in my appraisal....

There is a difference between being good and being the Best.... I agree I was and am always good...But I always wanted to be the BEST.
Then again , it depends on our own definition of Best.  But I never let anything let me give up. Every failure gives me an opportunity to give my Best and be the Best. I still dream big which seems to be unrealistic to some. The continuous urge in me to be the Best is just not letting me be satisfied with all that I have. I am happy though but I know its a long way to go.
Life is a continual learning process. Every failure of mine has taught me to stand up and fight again. Every success teaches me hard work always pay. I need to try-  try , try and try until I succeed.
Dreams are big and so does my attitude. I know I will achieve it someday...
Someday my BEST will be THE BEST!!!!

Friendship

Google says "A friend is a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations". I believe every individual have their own definition of a friend. In fact some like me even have classification of friends :)

For me a friend is one with whom I have mutual affection(as google says) and like spending time with and most importantly with whom I am always comfortable the way I am.

I remember one of the Airtel's Ad "Har ek friend zaruri hota h" . I find this Ad very appropriate. We make so many friends in our whole life , each person different from another but everyone have their own importance in our lives. In my case too I have varieties of friends - Some are my cool buddies with whom I like to hang out and have fun without really discussing my personal matters; Some are the ones with whom I may not go out often but I share all of my problems and seek advice because I know they have my best interests at heart ; a few are both my cool buddies as well as my problem solvers.


Friends no doubt make our living enjoyable. I feel lucky to make so many lovely friends during different phases of my life.

My 3 school buddies - Ashita, Pihu and Pankhi. After we completed our school, we chose different fields and went to different states to chase our dreams. In our busy college life we could hardly talk to each other. I use to meet them once a year(during my vacations) only for 2-3 hours but within those hours we could discuss all that happened in our lives. We did have hard times, we did fight but we overcame all obstacles and still are the best buddies. With them I learned "True friendship is not being inseparable , its being separated and nothing changes". 

Then I made some good friends in my college. I met Dishni in my first day of college and within few days we became very good friends. People started thinking we were siblings as they use to see  us together from the first day. My first year was one of my best days of college. I could never think that I could ever fight with Dishni. But then during our 2nd year we started having some differences and she moved on with her new friends. I was all alone and I realized I did not even think of making any other friend when I had her. Today, we don't share the same friendship as our first year but we are still friends. This is because we still care about each other and strangely both of us miss that time which can never be brought again. She often says she regrets what she did to our friendship but I am happy at least we are still friends. A broken friendship can be a comma or a full stop .We choose. 

Strangest kind of friendship I ever developed was with my roommate Ruchika with whom I shared room for 4 years of my college. During our initial days, we could hardly talk to each other. This was because I already had Dishni and use to be with her most of the times. But when I had one of the dark phases of my life in college (Dishni and me started fighting) and use to remain grounded in my room, a special type of bond started developing between me and Ruchika. I never thought I could even like her because I found her very arrogant but now she is one of my best friends with whom I share almost all of my secrets. Friendship is not a big thing; its a million little things.

After I finished my college and started doing job, I became friends with Shailesh, Nimshi, Komal and Sakhir. They are not like my usual friends. Hanging out with them does not mean exploring places or having good food but it means just being with each other -talking, teasing and gossiping often outside our house or in a park. They are my worst critic with the best of humors. I bet no one ever made so much fun of me as they do . :( ... But the thing is I like spending time with them because whatever they do they are honest and true. They will discuss about all my problems and give advises but after its done they will start making fun of it. They taught me Real friends don't get offended when you insult them. They smile and call you something even more offensive. 

But till date my Bestest friend is only one - the one who is also my first love(as I mentioned in my first blog ). He is the only one who knows me in and out. By this what I mean is, he knows each and every thing in details, about every feelings of mine - my fear, my dream , my strength, my weaknesses. He is one of my critic but my biggest admirer. A Best Friend isn't someone who is just always there for you. It's someone who understand you a bit more than you understand yourself.

I met different people in my journey of life , made many friends - some stayed and became good friends(I mentioned about them in this blog),  some moved on and had new friends. But this is what life is all about : meet new people, make new friends, some stays, some says good bye but life goes on. Only one thing is constant in our life that is "Change".  Even in this constantly changing life we do make some good friends who stays for lifetime. I am proud to have such good friends who made my life wonderful and worth living.
Friends are most important ingredient in the recipe of life..... 

Positive Attitude

"All Power is within you, You can do anything and Everything. " - Swami Vivekananda.

As it is rightly said life is not a Bed of Roses. Honestly speaking, perhaps life would not have been that interesting if it was that easy. The feeling that we could do the thing which seemed to be impossible, the feeling of accomplishment;  perhaps is one of the best in the world. We surely do not have much idea of all of our potentials.
Often we tend to avoid taking even the first step towards our goal with the fear of losing. Yes, we might lose/fail initially but that is not what should stop us. If we never start we will never know we could even do that. Not trying is perhaps the bigger failure than the actual failure itself. There is always a way to get what we really want. Thomas Alva Edison had more than 1000 unsuccessful attempts to invent a light bulb but that did not stop him. He knew he could and he did it. Chasing our dreams really requires a lot of patience and to attain that patience we need to have a positive outlook. Every failure should be seen as a lesson and we should try again making sure we do not repeat the previous mistakes.

Thomas Edison said “Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.” 

We should always dream big. To achieve something big, first we need to think that we can, however unrealistic it might seem to others. But if we really want it and work hard for it, certainly we will get it. Unless we dream we can never achieve. Positive attitude helps us think that our dream can be real even when other people think that we are stupid. It helps us keep going - chasing our dreams.
If we read about life of any successful personalities be it Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Ratan Tata, APJ Abdul Kalam, Amitabh, Sharukh ... - we will see that they are where they are now just because they never gave up. It all did not come that easy to them either. But they Believed they could do what they eventually did. Positive attitude plays a vital role in every success stories.

The happiest people do not necessarily have the Best of Everything, they just make the Best out of Everything that comes their way!!!

My Inspiration

My Inspiration.....my Strength....my Positive side...my Guardian......my Big Brother.. my Bhaiya :)

From my very childhood I was lucky enough to have my bhaiya , an  additional guardian apart from  parents. I remember my childhood when he used to make my pony, wrap my books, help me get ready for school, distribute new pencils, erasers and other stationary during exams. I remember the way we use to fight like cats and dogs  and also the day when he prayed to Lord Ganesha holding my hand to help me get well when I was ill. 

He was a brilliant student. I have never seen him studying without the television on. I really appreciated his concentration skills and how he always managed to be among the toppers. He had very good hand writing. But that is not all, he was my father's right hand. He helped him after returning from school without even changing his school uniform and sometimes skipping lunch. My mother's best friend. I used to envy how both of them had so many secret talks. he was our youngest brother's playing buddy too. All 4 of us - me, our 2 younger sisters and the youngest brother relied upon him in all our school works and decisions. He could so easily bind together our family. None of us had any idea whats going to come ahead.  

Life is really strange. One day we just lost him. He met with an accident , hospitalized for 10-12 days but could not survive. All of a sudden my father lost his business partner, my mother lost her best friend , and we siblings lost our immediate guardian. Our family shattered. 

Everything seemed so unrealistic. We all felt he is gonna come. Perhaps he did. He now resides in our hearts forever. His responsibilities became mine and his dreams became my dreams, My brother wanted to be a successful Computer Engineer and hence so do I. I got a reason in my life- my purpose to live. I knew now its me who needs to take care of our parents and love and guide our younger siblings. I accepted the whole responsibilities with my bhaiya in my heart. From a below average student I became a topper. I try my best to be my siblings best friend understanding their feelings and guiding them to the right path. I was glad when papa told me recently "Tu to mera Beta h". I listen to all my mother's stories or complains and try my best to make her happy. 

I still feel him beside me always. Whenever I feel lost, I just think of him as in what would he do if he was in this situation. He gives me courage to take the risk if its meant for good purpose. He gives me determination to work hard. He helps me to keep my positive attitude even when I fail. 

His dream is still alive in me. I know its a long way to do. But I have him so I know I can do wonders.....Lucky to have him in my life.. He is the Best Thing That Ever Happened to me...  

First Love

My first blog has to be about my First Love after all my blog deserves to be special as my First Love is.
Its funny how I fell for a person I never thought I would even like. But its been around 6 years now that we are  together. The best part about our relationship is that we are each other's Best Friend and that makes our relation really amazing.
My love story did not start as it is in movies and story books. It developed over a period of time without us even realizing. Now when I look back to think when did I first felt I loved him , I actually don't know. I just know when I first realized that I do love him.It was when he said I love you for the first time. We were just friends all was fine, never thought of love but suddenly the three words from him made me think about him whole day. Yes, I thought about it whole day suddenly feeling so loved and complete. I knew it was something felt by both of us for days but was untold yet.
Like all couples we do fight a lot. I remember the time when we fought and stopped talking to each other for months, but the best part was we could get back together as if nothing happened; rather somewhere a fight always strengthens our relationship.
I feel lucky to have this one man in my life who can get the best out of me, with whom I am the real me without the fear of being judged, who understands my weakness and supports my strengths, who loves me the way I am. He is my man, my best friend , my soul mate... My First Love!!